I am depressed, and my family isn't helping?!?

When you look into a mirror, what do you see. It should be the most important person in the world to you. No one can take that away from you,except you(as you mentioned suicide earlier). You know you really don't want to do that. I know,I've had those thoughts and even plan before. I'm still here and have several college degrees.I also have a couple of genuine friends,one I can tell things to before I even say anything to my family. You may have someone like that in your life. there are lost's of people out there that would like to help you. You said you are popular at school, so you know how to get along with others.You are going to have to take things one at a time,and live each day with an outlook that's positive.Not as hard as you think. Just saw a program on TV where many kid's-teen's-young adults were living out of there car or living in a cheap motel because not enough money was coming in. Sounds like your family may be having some financial problems also,but it is NOT your fault. Try and do your best in school and make good grades. Talk with your guidance counselor,favorite teacher or any other adult who you can trust.Things change quickly,and I'm sure your parents are worried too! They argue,and most times money is mixed in there somewhere.Again,you do your best, and try and hook up with as many school activities,during and after, as possible.You are old enough ,get a parttime job,babysit, or volunteer for something ,OUTSIDE of your home. Remember ,first step is looking in the mirror and try and do the best with the person starring back at you.Most people are thinking about what you think about them ,not about you.And try and take it slow w/the guy you say you love, if he really loves you ,he will understand and try and help you w/your problems,as I'm sure you would do for him. Don't use this relationship as an escape route from life. You have plenty of time ahead, and sounds like you are intelligent,and have no problem making friends. Think about all your friends, and if you think there is one that you can really trust, start talking with them. And don't forget to be a good listener to them also, as you may be able to help them w/o knowing it by listening. And while this is going on, see what common problems you both may have,and the two of you work together to solve this/them. This will be a start,and let me know how things are going. I'll be looking for you on this site. Good luck,and happy days are going to come sooner than you think.